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[falselife]

i don't know
i feel like all i've done is cry and interrogate you
but i

i wanted to know
if you've hurt anyone else
since me

[freightcars]

No. I haven't.
I mean I



In the camp they had those fighting rings, they threw me into that just like they did everyone else, but that's
No. Nothing like that.

[falselife]

i was forced into that, too
i lost
my
footing was off
without my magic it's healed strangely

but... alright
that's good

[freightcars]

my healing was messed up too
I get it
my arm

healed strangely how?

[falselife]

do you have healing magic too?

it



there's a scar

[ That's it, that's literally it. ]

[freightcars]

sort of
I guess you could say that
there's something in me that heals me, or it's supposed to
it disappeared in that place

you never had a scar before?

[falselife]

so you don't have to cast? it is a condition, active all the time?
except for when it's blocked by something external, i guess

well
i have a few little ones
the bigger ones, you can't see on this plane

[ And here she's internally screaming because immediately she decides she wants to take that detail back, but she's already hit send so- ]

not important what i mean is
i rely on healing magic, and healing magic usually works too fast to allow for scarring this visible

[freightcars]

i'm not sure so much that it's a condition either, it's
when I was a soldier, I got taken in as a prisoner of war twice
the first time they were experimenting with stuff in the camp they held me at
they made this serum, this
formula
Whatever you'd call it where you're from

That's where I get the healing, the strength, the stamina.
It's not really magic, it's
Bastard science.

[ Since they're in the business of sharing history tonight apparently.
But about that plane thing...

She's shifting off of it pretty quick, so it sticks in his mind all the more. ]

they make lotion you can put on scar tissue
creams
probably won't ever go away but it makes them fade

[ Not that they ever worked on the patchwork scars around his arm, but even the serum couldn't heal those right. ]

[falselife]

we would call it formula/serum too, i think
so it is a part of you?
it is just a part of your composition now... bastard science enhancement

do they?
maybe i will try
i don't know how to feel about it
my mother told me that every scar has a story, even if it's stupid or painful, and that we should not be ashamed of our stories. that they are signs that we have grown, and that we have survived
but, then again
she did not have many scars, herself

[freightcars]

yeah
pretty much, in a nutshell
james "bastard science enhancement" barnes.


i think it's okay to want to get rid of some scars
doesn't mean we're ashamed
means we don't want to remember
sometimes how we got the scar isn't a choice, but keeping it might be.
guess you gotta ask yourself
what does it remind you of when you look at it
and how does that memory make you feel

[falselife]

there are things i think i would like to forget
but they have also made me who i am,
so i wonder, who i would be if i did

when i look at this one
there is pain
cold
dirt, grass, exhaustion, tears, failed magic
metal,
not metal, stars, and
you


i don't know how i feel

[freightcars]

I'd fade it
If it were me.

[falselife]

i think
i will try that

i can wear my high socks until then, i guess

[freightcars]

Good plan
Smart