[ bucky pulls back and jack's still pushing, shoulders curling in, hands on his arms curling fingers in tight and pull at him, head trying to duck forward and capture his lips again and cut off any kind of discussion. he isn't fast enough, or strong enough, and the question ends up a firm interruption, jack blinking back to bucky's eyes.
why?
he doesn't want to think about why. he just wants to do it, follow the urge until it's snuffed out, not think about where it came from or where it's going or what the consequence of it are, he just wants, and isn't that the point of this place? want and take? ]
I miss you. [ jack tells him eventually, and it isn't a lie. he does miss him. he aches for him, for the way they were before the fort, for everything bucky usually is for him, but it's been twisted since then, and jack can't tell if the vitriol he feels for it is safe enough to indulge without risking it splash back to bucky, and poison them both further. so it's this - violence towards them, nothing but a fierce want and desire for bucky. if he goes fast enough, hard enough, maybe that'll burn away the rest of it. ] And I need it.
Now.
[ before what's built up in his head explodes into something else. help him get lost from it. ]
in case we get locked from the comms;
[ bucky pulls back and jack's still pushing, shoulders curling in, hands on his arms curling fingers in tight and pull at him, head trying to duck forward and capture his lips again and cut off any kind of discussion. he isn't fast enough, or strong enough, and the question ends up a firm interruption, jack blinking back to bucky's eyes.
why?
he doesn't want to think about why. he just wants to do it, follow the urge until it's snuffed out, not think about where it came from or where it's going or what the consequence of it are, he just wants, and isn't that the point of this place? want and take? ]
I miss you. [ jack tells him eventually, and it isn't a lie. he does miss him. he aches for him, for the way they were before the fort, for everything bucky usually is for him, but it's been twisted since then, and jack can't tell if the vitriol he feels for it is safe enough to indulge without risking it splash back to bucky, and poison them both further. so it's this - violence towards them, nothing but a fierce want and desire for bucky. if he goes fast enough, hard enough, maybe that'll burn away the rest of it. ] And I need it.
Now.
[ before what's built up in his head explodes into something else. help him get lost from it. ]